Istikharah 120709

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim


I felt so down the other day that I felt restless and I could not sleep that night. Been waiting on the facebook since Saturday, I have been worrying bout Mr N even though I knew in the first plce that he will be safe and sound.

That same night I did my Solat Taubat and Istikharah in tears, really hoping and praying that my wish wil be granted. Iwas even ready to let go of him if ALLAH does not allow me to do so. Since I have been dreaming of nightmares and embarrassing moments, I thought that night my dream would be the same.

But it was not.

Mr N appeared again in my dream.

This time, I dream I went somewhere with him in a car. I hardly remembered the dreams actually. What I can recall was that we were going somewhere back and fourth. I had to him somewhere, and then he was sending me and then I had to send him back again. When I asked him, "And now I have to send you back home right?"
Then he smiled. It was as if he did it purposely and his intention was to spend more time with me but that was just my feelings during that time.

One more thing that I remembered was he was very bubbly this time. As we were driving, we saw a Boeing 744 flying too low and I heard him complaining and uttered few technical terms. i dont understand but I just agreed with him.


Thats all that I can remember..


And the next day I smiled whole day, knowing that Allah has heard my prayers and now is a matter of time and HE wants to see whether I'm patient enough to wait for Mr Right to come.