Ummi

I was driving on the way back from settling the bills to gether with Ummi. Suddenly Ummi said:


Ummi : Kat Langkawi je bulan ni Ummi dah spend more than RM1k
Me : Wah!! Banyak nya??? Ummi sedekah kat Pakcik Ismail Group ke?
Ummi : Takla. Banyak spend kat Idaman Suri. Kat situ je dah lima ratus lebih
Me : Haa... beli pinggan la tu. Ummi beli apa lagi?
Ummi : Kat kedai A pulak hari tu Ummi beli kasut. Nampak murah jadi Ummi beli la
Me : Lagi Ummi beli apa?
Ummi : Kat kedai B pulak Ummi nampak handbag murah, tu yang Ummi beli.
Pastu kat airport ada hand luggage yang murah brand polo Ummi berkenan pulak tapi
kirim officemate suruh dia bawak balik.


Actually, it doesn't matter to me how much she spend or what she bought. It occurs to me that my dearest Mom has slowly switch to her shopping mode. It has been more than a year that she suffered since THE INCIDENT, which took away our happiness and all sorts of events leading to one another. She had no appetite towards food, lose so much weight, let alone to go shopping. We were mourning throughout the whole year, and the impact still hurt ten of us (Including Ummi) till today.

Hearing Ummi bought so many things makes me a bit relieved, knowing that she has now moved on and not hankering and harping on the incident. I knew she was crused to the ground so badly, yet she is tough and bounce back and try to make baby steps so that her children will not suffer like her.



I have to stop now. Tears is falling down even though the rain outside has stopped an hour ago.



All I want to say is I love you, Ummi.



And will always be,



Till the end of time, Insya Allah.



Nothing in the world can beat your position in my heart, not even Mr N..